Cam took a deep breath as he put on clothes to go for a walk. His head felt full of stress and confusion and decisions. The only thing he missed about that damn island was how he had no choices to make. Now, he was constantly reminded of the dozens he would be making in the next year. He walked out on the porch and held out his hand for Kurt to take. It was stupid, but he felt just a tiny bit safer holding his minutes older brother’s hand. Probably from Burt telling them to hold hands when crossing the street and walking to the park and really any time they walked as little kids. Now it was kind of awkward to do, but he just wanted to feel safe again.
“Connor is going to sponsor me to go to Dalton,” he started, figuring he should talk since this was his idea. “My room will be free for Blaine if you want, but I am going either way. I miss Connor. No one at McKinnley really likes me and doesn’t have the last name Lopez. I… I miss the island’s freedom. I love Dad to pieces and will visit, but I feel smothered right now.”
Kurt stood on the front steps with his arms crossed over his chest while he waited for his brother to meet him outside. Since coming back from the island, his worries about his brother had really only gotten worse. He could see that Cam wasn’t really adjusting to being back in a ‘regular’ society too well, and he really wasn’t sure what to do to help him. The fact that Kurt couldn’t actually be of any use or help to his twin made him feel like one of the worst people in the world. All of their lives, Kurt had been able to do at least /something/ to make Cam feel better or to put him into a better mood - now he just felt useless and hopeless. Uslessness and hopelessness weren’t really things that Kurt Hummel was too used to feeling - at least not for a very long time. Somehow - he knew it was the island’s fault; that place had changed him in a way that he didn’t like, in a way that he truly didn’t want to admit to.
Hearing the door open behind him, he offered a soft smile in Cam’s direction when he saw his (technically) younger brother hold out his hand for him to take. It was something that the two of them had done since they were children - something that had always made the two of them feel safe - and Kurt wasn’t really ashamed to be holding his brother’s hand as they walked down the driveway and truly into the night, making their way slowly around the block as they moved.
Listening as Cam explained how Connor was going to sponsor him to go to Dalton, Kurt felt his heart skip a beat a little bit. Nodding a little as he listened, he let out a long sigh before smiling lightly at the mention of feeling smothered. He definitely knew that feeling. Since they had come back, his father rarely actually let them out of his sight. Kurt knew it was because he was afraid he was going to lose them again, but constantly being watched over and checked up on was starting to get a little annoying. Frowning a bit as he realized that Cam thought no one at McKinley liked him, Kurt shook his head a little. “That’s not really true you know…about the McKinley thing. You might not get along with the Lopezes but there are plenty of people who like you. All of the Fabrays like you - except maybe Charlie but she doesn’t really like anyone - and we both know that Brittany loves everyone. Travis and Finn like you - obviously - and the Cohen-Changs and the Abrams triplets like you..” he countered, trying to find a way to convince Cam to try to convince Connor to come to McKinley instead. Now he knew how it felt to be on the receiving end of information that meant he wouldn’t be seeing his twin as often as he used to, and he couldn’t help himself. Part of him was worried that if Cam really left they wouldn’t be as close as they were now, and that scared the crap out of him.
Kurt let out a worried sigh as he pulled himself up off of the couch from where he’d been lounging with Blaine - watching The Bachelorette. They had been gone for a year, so he had missed an entire season of both The Bachelor and The Bachelorette (something that had upset him more than he actually let on), but now that they were back in Lima he could watch the new season. “I’ll be back in a little bit,” he whispered to Blaine, placing a soft yet lingering kiss on his boyfriend’s lips. “I love you,” he said with a soft smile before walking out of the living room and towards the front door. Opening the door, he sighed softly before stepping out onto the front porch to wait for his brother to come meet him.
Ok. See you then.
I shall see you soon.
Ok. It’s about… everything.
Alright, meet me downstairs in a few minutes? I’ve gotta get dressed.
But now I don’t want to go home.
Then don’t go back, hun. Just stay here. I’m going to take a walk with Cam, but I’ll be back soon. <3
Is Blaine still here? I wanna talk….
He is. I don’t think I’m going to let him go back home if what he told me about how his father treats him is true. We can still talk though. Do you want to take a walk around the block or something?